SuddenSuicide

Feeling like my throats been slit Words seem to stop at bleeding point Reversing acidic words right back into my stomach Finding the newest way to make me sick The warmness of death lies next to me The most I can do is just not breathe Yesterday turns into tomarrow letting today be the story untold, unnoticed Lies right now are as popular as intoxicants No antedotes currently found If you happen to stumble accross some, bring some back for the  crowd - currently overindulging in the poisons dillusional reality Hating every second, holding every breath Exhaling leads to satisfaction or failure, and NO ONE LIkES A QUITTER Motionles

When you live in such a shattered sheltered environment - you have friends, but your friends are your friends untill you grow old or die young. Small town traps are so hard to untangle yourself from. Ups and downs create swirling scars and lasting impressions, frequently on the most overlooked relationships. Friendships held most close, shared so openly become bad tattooes on the heart, bad drugs to the brain. This will matter not when it matters most, but when it finally matters least. Sometimes things need to be let go. Let it go. Growing up is the most enexplained concept to my knowledge. What are you supposed to do when you do

If I could be anything for yuo I'd be your medicatrion When you feel lost, alone, and empty I'd be here as your salvation The girl I knew once full of life Now, blinded by despair A life once lived with hopes and dreams Has chose to go nowhere Each night you fall asleep in pain And wake with disarray Your heart has lost the depth and love Your mind's become decayed I should be apathetic You're just an empty girl Who turned to drug addiction To hide from the real world Stop using drugs to fill the void You encompass in your heart Not only is it killing yours It's ripping mine apart I beg you now, please tell me Just wha

I'm not myself lately, I'm different and it's weird If I ever cared for anything, the caring disappeared The emptiness in my stomach hurts, there's a hole in my heart It's taking all I have right now, not to fall apart I'm afraid everything's changing, I fear I'm not ready I'm insecure, depressed, alone, and nowhere close to steady Inside I'm broken, I have wounds I can't repair It seems everyone's against me, but life is never fair The other day I realized, how bad it could really be I cried out all my tears, and no longer felt like me I'm only happy when I sleep, my dreams keep me alive When will I find that something, that will

Always around to make me smile. I felt like I knew you for years. So close so fast. Intense as it was incredible. Broken in the end. A beautiful disaster from the beginning. I could never read your thoughts. You misinterpreted mine. I never meant to hurt you. You were something that I'd never had, and I probably shouldn't have attained. You were too good for me. You were tainted yes, but I was a wreck. You picked me up, but I pushed away. Cuz I was fucked up. I'm still a head case. Hopefully you've forgotten about me. There's no reason to remember. I try to forget everyday. But there's no forgetting what I created. You

how can something so far away still hurt so bad? honestly, it's like 2000 miles, that should b enough not to feel it. but i feel it. every other weezer song, high cliff, the posters, the sweatshirts, eve6, everything. you're everywhere. get the fuck out of my dreams. you are so perfect in my dreams. this feels like freaken middle school. i crushed. H  A R D i don't do this ever. i am never the person to do this. but i'm doing it. i'm letting it get to me. sometimes i wish you never existed. sometimes i wish you existed more than you do. why do i exist? all i do is spill stuff and hurt feelings. are you happy? i r

Sometimes...I don't know who you are I don't know where youre going, what you're doing. Do you? I don't know what you feel, if you feel Your feelings make me nauseous The butterflies in my stomach are anxious So sick of waiting Waiting on nothing The waiting game is over ...is it over? Cuz I can still smell you on last nights t-shirt   and I can see you in my dreams I hear your words but choose not to listen I feel you inside Falling further, falling faster Just to fall face first, face down Deny me all you want In the harshest way reject me Accuse me, misuse me, mislead me Miscommunication Laughing, fighting, fucking, drin

im mildly insulted by the way your chemistry makes firework shows, while my chemistry is nothing more but bottle rockets thrown into the river. fizzling out before it even starts. i watch from accross the room, daggars shooting out of my eyes. bullseyes on your hearts. a forcefeild brings you 2 closer together as it deflects the daggars back into my eyes. it's better this way. my empty eye sockets can no longer see your passion growing. i can't see that girl drawing you in with her fake smile and devious eyes. i can't see it. but i can still feel it. i can still feel your hand on my heart pushing untill it explodes. what a bloody mess it's be

you're cute in that uncommon way of looking at things where've you been? do i want to know? probably not stupidly sarcastic hardly romantic always falling for assholes should i try? should i hide? should i let it fade? everything is nothing and nothing is all thats there your probably broken the same as me if you put 2 broken things together is the outcome miracously fixed? or ridiculously unfixable? my imagination or your distant reality when you look at me are you thinking like me? we're weirdly alike do i like it? ¿? misled ¿? ...so this is confusion....

i want to drink like a fish drink untill i fill my empty insides drink untill the pain drains my eyes i wish i could do enough coke to go blind sniff away everything thats crowdiing my mind stay of for days satisfied in my daze i want to eat so many rolls so many rolls that no one even knows roll away my future roll away my past i wish my world still spun i can't have fun heartache headache love rhymes with heartbreak all the drugs in the world couldnt make me feel better all the pain in the world couldnt make me feel worse i hope i go to sleep tonight and never have to face tomarrow i can't handle daylight or tonight it'